Mommydom

In life there are many changes that occur. We all have to go down a path and decide where it takes us. Take graduation for example, I've been lucky enough to experience it twice. We spend all of our time learning how to succeed at school only to be released out into the unknown with a wonderful celebration where everyone tells you how proud they are of you and what you have accomplished. Mommydom has many changes that occur, many paths to chase, and the celebration at the end of the trails are multiple, but not for you. You celebrate your children's accomplishments, moments of excitement, every little path they take, you are along for the ride.
My kids are really making me feel the end of a big path recently. Tallyn has only one month left of Elementary school. She will celebrate the end of fifth grade June 21st, and I will cry like nobodies business. I seem to be having a lot of feelings about her moving on to middle school. I keep trying to figure out why. I think I've come to the conclusion that its the fact that she is becoming her own person and I am simply here to make sure she survives it all.
She has become someone who is excited about singing, drawing, writing, and is trying to learn who she is quietly and slowly. yes I said slowly, like a turtle. Which makes me jump out of my Mommydom cave and bite sometimes, but she survives. I'm hoping at some point the child will catch on to things and go after them with a little gusto instead of like a snail climbing up the side of a house.
She makes me proud though, that's for sure. Tomorrow night is the last choir concert of elementary school She will be singing a solo. I Will cry. Sigh. I just do.
My son is jumping from milestone to milestone and amazing me daily. Just in the past few days he moved into a big boy bed and out of his crib. The transition was way less painful for him than I. I go in and peek at him in his bed and get a little emotional at my big boy lying there, because I have no idea where my baby went.
Mommydom is a beautiful thing. There are many paths and bumps along the way. I am learning daily that the little accomplishments and milestones they overcome are the celebrations of mommydom.